Cinta Sesungguhnya.................................

Cinta Sesungguhnya : Sabhi Saddi

Ku adalah manusia
Yang paling beruntung
Memiliki kamu

Kau tiada habisnya Menyayangi aku sepenuh hatimu
Cinta yang luar biasa
Ku serahkan pada dirimu

Kaulah cinta sesungguhnya
Sekuat hati ku kan menjagamu
Demi cinta seutuhnya

Ku kan berjanji seumur hidupku
Takkan lelah mendampingimu

Kau tiada habisnya
Menyayangi aku sepenuh hatimu
Cinta yang luar biasa
Ku serahkan pada dirimu

Kaulah cinta sesungguhnya
Sekuat hati ku kan menjagamu
Demi cinta seutuhnya
Ku kan berjanji seumur hidupku
Takkan lelah mendampingimu

Kaulah cinta sesungguhnya
Sekuat hati ku kan menjagamu

Kaulah cinta sesungguhnya
Sekuat hati ku kan menjagamu
Demi cinta seutuhnya
Ku kan berjanji
Takkan lelah mendampingimu

Ku kan berjanji seumur hidupku
Takkan lelah mendampingimu

Puitis! What a wonderful verses from the song "Cinta Sesungguhnya" by Sabhi Saddi. I heard this song in a friend's wedding. It was lovely. Poetic!

The second time I heard it was from a video excerpt from Rozita Che Wan dan Zain Saidin's wedding. There were so lovely walking down the isle. Semoga berkekalan hingga ke jannah kalian semua. Insya Allah.

Marriage is a holy matrimony that bind two lovely souls together. To spend the rest of your life with someone you really love, someone who you can lean on, sharing bad and good times together. 

Beruntung sungguh orang yang berpeluang berkongsi hidup dengan
orang yang dicintai. 

Don't take it for granted because they were people out there who are lonely and long to have what you had. :-) Love is a blessing from Allah to us, His khalifah. To be given and to be shared across all boundaries that human made.

Malay to be married to Chinese, Chinese to be married to Indian, Indian to be wed to a white guy and so on.... Love is universal. It is seen, feel and can be expressed in many ways. Cantik kan, Masya Allah!

Unfortunately, that is not the case for me. At least..not at the moment.

When I heard this song, my mind was drifted to someone who was really special. She was the only person I think of. .....Whom I had lost years ago. Someone whom had lost her life fighting to survive with IPF. A woman I called Mama. 

And she's a paintings in my mind.....................

At a times when things are not going well, I lift up my face..and my two hands upwards. Asking for a prayer to Allah. He who knows everything.

He who had bestowed me with so much love..and where I spread it to those who I really love. May He granted my Mama with Jannah.

At the hardest time of life as of now, it would be nice to have her around. Whispering words of strength. Asking me not to give up. "Come on, kakak. You can do it. Have faith Allah will give you something better despite His test". 

There..there..there was love in her looks. Her smile makes my heart melt. Makes my day brighter. Makes my heart feel at ease.

The way she smile, the way she walks, the way she looks, her smell..are still fresh in my memory. At times, her face faded away in my memory.

Kadang-kadang..I will look at her picture. Try to portrays her in my memory. So that it will never go away in my mind.

Hey - can't help to express how I feel about her. Cinta itu kekal abadi sehingga ke akhir hayat. Kadang-kadang I tell myself, it won't be long till we meet again. Some said, cakap-cakap cam tu buang tabiat. But that's how inspire myself to do good deeds. "Kalau kakak tutup aurat, solat tak tinggal, baca Al Quran..kita masuk syurga sama-sama, yer sayang". Then she will touch my nose and pinch it. Smiling.

Cinta ibu luar biasa. Kalau tidak...takkan Allah letakkan syurga dibawah tapak kaki wanita bergelar ibu.
Cinta ibu luar biasa. Kalau tidak...takkan Allah dengan mudah mengabulkan dosa seorang ibu.
Cinta ibu luar biasa. Kalau tidak...takkan Allah murka dengan mereka yang menyakiti hati bu.
Cinta ibu luar biasa. Masakan ibu menanggung sakit dan malu..membuka pekung semasa melahirkan kita semua. 
Cinta yang hanya mampu diatasi oleh cinta Allah pada hambaNya, cinta Rasulullah pada umatnya.

Betapa beruntungnya mereka yang masih ada ibu. Just sometimes I felt jeoulous that they can go shopping with their mum. Spending their money buying things that would please their mum.

Kadang-kadang tak faham..kenapa ada sesetengah orang take it for granted. Barangkali mereka yang kehilangan jer yang tahu bagaimana perasaan kehilangan. It was not easy but manageable.

Rindu..usah sebut..sebab setiap hari takkan berlalu tanpa mengingati ibu.
The longer the loss..the more you think of it. Rindu tanpa penghujung. At a times, I felt suffocated..how I am going to survive the daily challenges without her. Felt so vulnerable.

But as Mama used to say "Tak kira macam mana hari tu teruk sekalipun, jangan sedih. Allah kan ada. Angkatlah tangan dan berdoa. Insya Allah, bantuan akan datang pada sesiapa yang bermohon. Dia Maha Penyayang..Maha Pengasih"
And Mama..ketenangan tu datang..because Allah bestowed her to me. No matter how hard the days are..you will get over it.

There is no guarantee that things are working fine, always. But better days are there. It just a matter of time before it reaches you. Ajaibkan hidup ni..
Mama - Al Fatihah to you. Semoga Allah merahmati Mama disana. Until then, my prayer goes out to you every little now and then.

Love,
Kak Yah